I never realized...

just how complicated it is to have a family member die. 

I went to the funeral home yesterday and was there for an hour and a half signing paperwork and giving information and having to have so many documents to show correct information.  I didn't even have to do as much as you normally would because my Otey was a veteran.  They will bury him in a vets cemetery and me (when I pass) along side of him.  They also will cover 'most' (but not all) of the costs.  All you vets out there... make sure you have your discharge papers in a safe place, you (or your spouse) will need them in quite a few situations including health care.

Today, I go to see our attorney (and this is scary).  I need so much help with final preparations in his estate, etc.  I'll be glad when this part is over.

The funeral is tomorrow evening.  I chose a short service and no graveside services.  A couple of his close friends will speak.  I believe I will need several handkerchiefs.  I need one right now as I am writing this.  I also chose a closed casket because I want Otey to be remembered as he was not laying in a casket not looking like himself.  His casket has crosses on it and will be draped with the American flag.  He was very close to God and also very patriotic.  It is so him.

I am going to have to leave my home.  I'm handicapped... in a wheelchair.  I can't live here by myself.  Otey used to take me everywhere I needed to go... doctors, tests, etc.  He ran errands for me even did the grocery shopping.  Now I am wearing myself thin just trying to do the things I need to.

We'll see.  I just need to get through the rest of the week.  Then I'll start working on the big things.    :(